My Psychiatrist has been treating me for the past six years. I said something to him that I feel changed the dynamics of our therapeutic relationship. I explained to him that I had a tough week with nightmares every night for the last seven days, struggled with suicide idealization and self harm behaviors, which I didn't act on. I then said I feel like I have taken steps backward and I don't want to disappoint him. I asked him is it wrong for me to worry about disappointing him.
The reaction was not what I expected. He looked away, said that was a loaded question and seem to get uncomfortable. His body language changed from relaxed to guarded. He was biting his bottom lip which I have never seen him do before and he sat in a position that was very guarded.
I am confused! From my chair it was a simple question. I highly respect him. He has been very committed. We both have. I don't have any "feelings" towards him. It's like I step in a wrong spot and now there is a big rock in between us.
Please, if anyone know why this is a "loaded question" can you explain it to me.
I am not one of those people that can process conversations quickly and respond. I have to process the session for a couple of days, which causes me to have a lot of questions in between.
I plan on expressing my observation of his body language to explain his behavior. It would help me out in the conversation if I knew why this question was so alarming.
Thanks for any input.
The reaction was not what I expected. He looked away, said that was a loaded question and seem to get uncomfortable. His body language changed from relaxed to guarded. He was biting his bottom lip which I have never seen him do before and he sat in a position that was very guarded.
I am confused! From my chair it was a simple question. I highly respect him. He has been very committed. We both have. I don't have any "feelings" towards him. It's like I step in a wrong spot and now there is a big rock in between us.
Please, if anyone know why this is a "loaded question" can you explain it to me.
I am not one of those people that can process conversations quickly and respond. I have to process the session for a couple of days, which causes me to have a lot of questions in between.
I plan on expressing my observation of his body language to explain his behavior. It would help me out in the conversation if I knew why this question was so alarming.
Thanks for any input.