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Onefineday
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I'm sorry I can't respond to everyone's comments, but thanks for all the things people have said.
I need to do some more venting now, I've had such a shit day, just in general, nothing really bad day. I feel really ugly today and cried about it, I have had image problems ever since I was maybe 11 or 12. I dispise anyone commenting on my appearance, but one of my friends I guess has implied I'm not good looking, she goes on about everyone from highschool and how pretty they are now and how much they've changed, then she says to me 'oh you just look the same as you always have'. So now my image problems are beginning to resurface and I'm getting worked up about it all again.
Plus I have a bit of a man vent to myself today, I heard my neighbour (the one who was at my door in the middle of the night), well let me just say it wasn't HIM I was hearing but the woman he was with. I could hear her next door, I got really mad and thought about how it's probably some chick he's manipulated to get sexual gratification like he tried with me. Then 10 minutes later I heard someone jump in their car and drive off! So I started to get really infuriated about it and was ranting to myself about how he must have used her for a screw. I'm not going to be able to look at my neighbours without thinking they are pigs. I was reading a magazine and every time I came across a photo of a guy or an article about guys I got angry, plus the same while I was watching tv. Then I walked from my house to my mammas and I had a total of 7 cars drive past and beep their horn or yell something sleazy at me. I feel like I'm going insane with hatred, and it's getting worse and worse.
I need to do some more venting now, I've had such a shit day, just in general, nothing really bad day. I feel really ugly today and cried about it, I have had image problems ever since I was maybe 11 or 12. I dispise anyone commenting on my appearance, but one of my friends I guess has implied I'm not good looking, she goes on about everyone from highschool and how pretty they are now and how much they've changed, then she says to me 'oh you just look the same as you always have'. So now my image problems are beginning to resurface and I'm getting worked up about it all again.
Plus I have a bit of a man vent to myself today, I heard my neighbour (the one who was at my door in the middle of the night), well let me just say it wasn't HIM I was hearing but the woman he was with. I could hear her next door, I got really mad and thought about how it's probably some chick he's manipulated to get sexual gratification like he tried with me. Then 10 minutes later I heard someone jump in their car and drive off! So I started to get really infuriated about it and was ranting to myself about how he must have used her for a screw. I'm not going to be able to look at my neighbours without thinking they are pigs. I was reading a magazine and every time I came across a photo of a guy or an article about guys I got angry, plus the same while I was watching tv. Then I walked from my house to my mammas and I had a total of 7 cars drive past and beep their horn or yell something sleazy at me. I feel like I'm going insane with hatred, and it's getting worse and worse.