We had the worst night... It has been so hard to be around him lately because of his PTSD... Im afriad of how he will react if i say something that he takes the wrong way... and i am tired of him snapping at me everytime i say anything at all! It seems that he is always angry...or he just wants to be by himself... he looks hurt, and confused... i know he is scared and feels alone... it must be awful and to think that i feel i make it worse for him. We argued last night because i feel his meds are making things worse for him and i feel he should talk to his doctor about it... I have been on anti-depressants and i know that they dont always function the way they should because everyone is different and has a different reaction, therefore it may take one try or several to get on the right anti-depressants.... please, if anybody knows this is not right, then post what is correct. Also we argued because i want to be there for him when he is down or needs someone and he has a wall between us that i cannot climb over. I am a lil hard headed and i dont always go about things the right way but i am human...i am also a bit aggresive when getting my message across he has told me and now i notice. i didnt want to do all that i did to him... he told me i pushed him over the edge and i didnt want that. he just layed on the floor, his face covered for what seemed like a couple of hours! did not move at all... then finally when i wouldnt leave him alone, he exploded and there was nothing but anger coming from him...and he was hurt that i would not simply let him "cool off" why am i like this? why cant i be there for him? why dont i know how to be there for him? I drove to my mothers house and stayed away for an hour... when i came back, he seemed a lil better...he asked me if i wanted cold pizza and we went to bed afterwards... I feel horrible today....i feel depressed and i feel the distance from him...the one thing i dont want right now... I do not want to make his life a living hell...i want to show him that everything will be ok, and that things will bet better and that he is the strongest person i know. He is the sweetest person and has a heart of gold ive always told him...He doesnt deserve this..... i dont know what to do...i know its me. I know i make things worse..I feel i am his problem right now..i just dont know how to stop doing all the wrong and start doing the right.