I have recently have been diagnosed with PTSD and schizoprenia.
One of my freinds died this past October, and recently, I've been hearing her, seeing her, everwhere I go. Up to about a week ago, it was just her, but now i've been seeing others, people I don't know. They put me on medication, when the PTSD first started, along with the hallucinations. I didn't see April for a while, and I missed her. More than when she actually died. To have her ripped away from me again, was traumatic. They took me off the medication because it had nasty side affects on me. I've been seeing her again, but it's getting worse. I can talk to her, and she talks back to me. She's been telling me to kill myself, and telling me that I'm worthless and that no one except her loves me. I know these things aren't true.. but when it's actually happening it's so hard to believe. I can't lose her again, which is why I cant be on medication that stops it. I love her. I dont know what to do.
One of my freinds died this past October, and recently, I've been hearing her, seeing her, everwhere I go. Up to about a week ago, it was just her, but now i've been seeing others, people I don't know. They put me on medication, when the PTSD first started, along with the hallucinations. I didn't see April for a while, and I missed her. More than when she actually died. To have her ripped away from me again, was traumatic. They took me off the medication because it had nasty side affects on me. I've been seeing her again, but it's getting worse. I can talk to her, and she talks back to me. She's been telling me to kill myself, and telling me that I'm worthless and that no one except her loves me. I know these things aren't true.. but when it's actually happening it's so hard to believe. I can't lose her again, which is why I cant be on medication that stops it. I love her. I dont know what to do.