joeylittle
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You didn't upset her. She got upset. There's a big difference.I feel bad for upsetting her. I didn't mean to.
I'm also not surprised your peer got concerned when you mused aloud about wine and sleeping pills.
I cannot repeat this enough, @Iyllsa - an authentic DBT program would provide you with the support and structure you need. There are ways to learn to rely on yourself, and they can be learned; they also do not need to be learned alone.
You are confusing self-reliance with isolation.
You are also confusing support with attention. I think you are starting to understand that attention is not actually serving you well, and that you aren't getting support. But you will continue to ask for attention instead so long as you don't give yourself a different option.
Please research DBT programs in your area. I'm happy to help if you don't know where or how to look for them.