SinkorSwim
MyPTSD Pro
Yesterday was the day I shared with my therapist what I remember about the time around my sexual abuse. It is a lot of broken up memories that I had a really hard time explaining. There was one that really bugged me. She told me to practice my self care so I did last night and I went for a run and ran my aromatherapy. I slept like crap but I don't even know what I am thinking about. I'm just lost at the moment between memories trying to figure stuff out. I feel like I am crawling in my skin. I very much want to solve all this bottled up emotion right away and I can't. I've been holding all of this in 22 years. I feel like I need to very much talk out my feelings but I can't find the words right now. She told me to write things down and then forget about it, but I can't even seem to write anything out except this. She also told me I can call her at any moment and she would return my call. She is very good about this, but I don't even know what to explain to her right now. I am just lost.