Recently, I've been trying to cope with what I feel very strongly is PTSD, but I haven't been clinically diagnosed. I've been reading about the symptoms of PTSD and researching it in textbooks, and it describes my behavior to a t. I've experienced more than one traumatic event, and it has been ruling my life, and I am sick of it. The day before yesterday, I tried to confront my experiences, a person was with me that I had recently been talking to about my trauma, and he seemed to understand, so I invited him over, and I thought I could make a friend while I was dealing with this crap, because I've been isolating myself so much over the past 5-6 years. To the point, I started trying to talk about it more, but I ended up on my hands and knees just screaming, "what the f*ck" at the top of my lungs. Before I knew it, I was in the hospital. They said I was suffering from acute psychosis. I remember bits and pieces of it, but I couldn't tell you exactly what I was thinking, but I remember being absolutely horrified during the breakdown, or whatever you want to call it. I scared other people, but I'm glad it didn't go further than that. I don't entirely know what to do. I would see a therapist, psychiatrist, whatever, but they remind me of a person linked to a past trauma, and that's why I avoid them. I'm at my wits end.