I broke down and called a crisis hotline the other day. Did not really want to but anxiety was getting the best of me. When I am that anxious the last thing on my mind is using the tools I have. We basically just chatted awhile which was good for me and helped me to get grounded. Of course she asked the standard questions about self-harm or harming others which I understand. I got lucky because she was very personable and nonthreatening. We also made an agreement that someone from their agency would call me every other day for the next week which I greatly appreciate. It turned out to be a positive thing for me and am glad I did it...I suppose I could have suffered through it by myself...have done that enough in the past...I am getting better at reaching out for help!!!!