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hey guys my names Toni and I'm a 26yr old single mother who has just been diagnosed with c-ptsd. My biggest trouble is finding the motivation to leave the house. Even to get help. Lasted 4 sessions with the Phsyc and then the anxieties kicked in and again had trouble leaving the house. The guilt eats me alive as my daughter suffers for this. I dream of taking her to things like the zoo and out to dinner and everything my parents did with me. As other sufferers may know guilt turns into anger and self hate. Then the suicidal thoughts start happening and then I think of Kari and how this effects her and the whole thing starts again. I do take anti depressants but find it hard to remember to take them. I go from extreme happiness wile on them and total forget the bad stuff, to then forgetting to take them and becoming my own worst enemy yet again. I suppose I'm just asking for help or someone to talk to honestly and openly without fear of the other person thinking I'm "crazy". I just don't know what else to do and I just want to get better so I can be a better mother for my daughter.