I love my wife.... yes I do. But it is hard sometimes. Not to love her but to stay strong and to stay calm and not yell at her "Get over it already." I sometimes feel like she is a broken record and for days at a time she tells me the same stories from her past over and over. I so badly want her better and be like she was when we first met. Things were so so wonderful. I will always love her, because of the girl I know is inside of this war struck soul. She has a beautiful smile when she smiles, a great laugh when she lets it flow, a "dorkish" sense of humor when it can be unleashed. And most of all a real sweetness. Not some fake love sweetness but a love and caring for people and animals more of this world needs. I sometimes wonder why God has let her suffer so much and I get angry at Him for it but it is not his fault. I want to be able to make love to my wife without her feeling bad. Her abuse was so bad she can not call it making love. She see's no love in the act. Sometimes she can't even see love in anything. How can people destroy another persons soul? Do they not know that that's what they are doing? It's hard living with someone who has PTSD. But you know I love my wife and will always be there. Yeah at times I may not want to be there or I may want to call it quits. But I have to stand back and say whoa hold up, breath and think about it buddy. After all as my daughter says..."You married her, you have to love her and care for her." Damn Right!!!!!!!