Its been awhile since I've been on the forum.. I finally had to move. I had to get away from my surroundings.. I'm now in Arizona. My husband (Ubu) is still in Utah, my eldest daughter is going to be a senior and wants to stay there and finish. My 13 year old daughter has been wanting to try living with her dad, so I figured this would be a good time to try it out. My four year old son is with me, and sees his dad about ever two weeks.. daily phonecalls etc. I dont know if I made the right choice in leaving Utah, but it truly felt like my only choice. I was forced back to work due to the finances of trying to maintain two households on hubbys income and my meager disability.. so I got a less stressful job as an office assistant to a Chiropractor. Half the pay I'm used to getting, not very fulfilling, but at least I'm able to get my butt dressed and go to work. I feel like its a teeny improvement. However, marriage is suffering obviously, and I feel very empty. I dont fit in my own skin yet. But I missed talking to you all.. Hope everyone is well.