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Hey everyone!
I want to share with you my story of how I have completely reversed my PTSD and am now not only functional but happy and excited to be alive. I feel love and joy, two things I thought I would never be able to feel again.
I grew up in a very verbally abusive environment. I was suicidal by the age of 7. I had very poor self esteem and boundaries. Once I became an adult I dated very abusive men and was assaulted a few times as well as experiencing years of mental and sexual abuse. My PTSD became very pronounced at the age of 20 when my ex-boyfriend set me up to be violently raped. I had been assaulted before but this was the first time i thought a man might actually kill me. He told me he was going to kill me and he beat me almost to death.
After this I had many symptoms:
Health became extremely poor
Started having allergies to things like old buildings, yeast, other weird food allergies, even tap water
Hair was falling out, a lot every time i took a shower
No energy, could easily sleep for 24 hours
Sometimes would sleep 3 days at a time
Debilitating back problems
Couldnt sleep, night terrors and nightmares, phobias about someone breaking in, sleeping with my eyes partially open
Constant anxiety attacks and a billion triggers
Very difficult to work
People started guessing my age around 30, wrinkles in my face, skin looked unhealthy
Unable to feel deep joy or happiness, stopped enjoying everything i used to love
Didnt really talk anymore, didnt have anything to say or the energy to communicate
Involuntary muscle spasms
Dead inside, walking zombie
Wishing for death every day for about four years
I couldnt feel love, even from the people in my life who really loved me
I went through a long series of trying different things that didn't work, many people telling me I would have to "manage" this for the rest of my life and that complete recovery was hopeless. I wanted to be dead. I felt hopeless.
I didn't give up and over several years I found some things that helped me. I restructured my life to avoid major triggers, changed my career, my living environment, my diet, my exercise routine, went through several therapists until i found one who i felt really helped me, started going to group therapy, finally was able to successfully complete EMDR, and am now doing network chiropractic care.
I have fully reversed my PTSD. It is completely gone. I had myself clinically tested by my therapist so that I would even have the clinical results and I tested at a "0" in every category- depression, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, all of it.
I want to spread my message because there were so many people who told me I could never really be happy again and it made me suicidal. I want people to know that's not true, there is hope. I am actually happy, I never wonder if life is really worth living anymore. My back problems are gone, my autoimmune problems are gone, and I can't even remember the last time I had an anxiety attack.
I am writing a book about all the things I learned during my journey to recovery because I want to help people who are still suffering, the years I experienced PTSD were a true hell and feel like it is my life purpose to help people find real, permanent solutions for this suffering.
I got to a place in my PTSD where I felt stuck, it felt like no matter what I did I just wasn't making any progress. Talking therapy wasn't helping anymore. Nothing seemed to be. After a lot of research and trying different things I found out that trauma becomes physically stored in the body and that is why I wasn't making progress. I found two therapies that unstore trauma- EMDR and network chiropractic care. I started with EMDR once I was in a place where all of my survival needs were taken care of and I was able to have the safe space to be able to process all the emotions that came out from the EMDR. The network chiropractic care is like icing on the cake. I am the happiest, healthiest person I know.
I really hope my story can help someone, and show people that there really is hope. You really can heal. My heart is so full thinking of everyone here who is suffering and remembering how i felt. I feel so much love for everyone here, and I hope that you find happiness. <3 <3 <3
I want to share with you my story of how I have completely reversed my PTSD and am now not only functional but happy and excited to be alive. I feel love and joy, two things I thought I would never be able to feel again.
I grew up in a very verbally abusive environment. I was suicidal by the age of 7. I had very poor self esteem and boundaries. Once I became an adult I dated very abusive men and was assaulted a few times as well as experiencing years of mental and sexual abuse. My PTSD became very pronounced at the age of 20 when my ex-boyfriend set me up to be violently raped. I had been assaulted before but this was the first time i thought a man might actually kill me. He told me he was going to kill me and he beat me almost to death.
After this I had many symptoms:
Health became extremely poor
Started having allergies to things like old buildings, yeast, other weird food allergies, even tap water
Hair was falling out, a lot every time i took a shower
No energy, could easily sleep for 24 hours
Sometimes would sleep 3 days at a time
Debilitating back problems
Couldnt sleep, night terrors and nightmares, phobias about someone breaking in, sleeping with my eyes partially open
Constant anxiety attacks and a billion triggers
Very difficult to work
People started guessing my age around 30, wrinkles in my face, skin looked unhealthy
Unable to feel deep joy or happiness, stopped enjoying everything i used to love
Didnt really talk anymore, didnt have anything to say or the energy to communicate
Involuntary muscle spasms
Dead inside, walking zombie
Wishing for death every day for about four years
I couldnt feel love, even from the people in my life who really loved me
I went through a long series of trying different things that didn't work, many people telling me I would have to "manage" this for the rest of my life and that complete recovery was hopeless. I wanted to be dead. I felt hopeless.
I didn't give up and over several years I found some things that helped me. I restructured my life to avoid major triggers, changed my career, my living environment, my diet, my exercise routine, went through several therapists until i found one who i felt really helped me, started going to group therapy, finally was able to successfully complete EMDR, and am now doing network chiropractic care.
I have fully reversed my PTSD. It is completely gone. I had myself clinically tested by my therapist so that I would even have the clinical results and I tested at a "0" in every category- depression, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, all of it.
I want to spread my message because there were so many people who told me I could never really be happy again and it made me suicidal. I want people to know that's not true, there is hope. I am actually happy, I never wonder if life is really worth living anymore. My back problems are gone, my autoimmune problems are gone, and I can't even remember the last time I had an anxiety attack.
I am writing a book about all the things I learned during my journey to recovery because I want to help people who are still suffering, the years I experienced PTSD were a true hell and feel like it is my life purpose to help people find real, permanent solutions for this suffering.
I got to a place in my PTSD where I felt stuck, it felt like no matter what I did I just wasn't making any progress. Talking therapy wasn't helping anymore. Nothing seemed to be. After a lot of research and trying different things I found out that trauma becomes physically stored in the body and that is why I wasn't making progress. I found two therapies that unstore trauma- EMDR and network chiropractic care. I started with EMDR once I was in a place where all of my survival needs were taken care of and I was able to have the safe space to be able to process all the emotions that came out from the EMDR. The network chiropractic care is like icing on the cake. I am the happiest, healthiest person I know.
I really hope my story can help someone, and show people that there really is hope. You really can heal. My heart is so full thinking of everyone here who is suffering and remembering how i felt. I feel so much love for everyone here, and I hope that you find happiness. <3 <3 <3
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