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I now have no anxiety, depression, or other issues, formerly had debilitating ptsd (probably cptsd)

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Hey everyone!

I want to share with you my story of how I have completely reversed my PTSD and am now not only functional but happy and excited to be alive. I feel love and joy, two things I thought I would never be able to feel again.

I grew up in a very verbally abusive environment. I was suicidal by the age of 7. I had very poor self esteem and boundaries. Once I became an adult I dated very abusive men and was assaulted a few times as well as experiencing years of mental and sexual abuse. My PTSD became very pronounced at the age of 20 when my ex-boyfriend set me up to be violently raped. I had been assaulted before but this was the first time i thought a man might actually kill me. He told me he was going to kill me and he beat me almost to death.

After this I had many symptoms:

Health became extremely poor
Started having allergies to things like old buildings, yeast, other weird food allergies, even tap water
Hair was falling out, a lot every time i took a shower
No energy, could easily sleep for 24 hours
Sometimes would sleep 3 days at a time
Debilitating back problems
Couldnt sleep, night terrors and nightmares, phobias about someone breaking in, sleeping with my eyes partially open
Constant anxiety attacks and a billion triggers
Very difficult to work
People started guessing my age around 30, wrinkles in my face, skin looked unhealthy
Unable to feel deep joy or happiness, stopped enjoying everything i used to love
Didnt really talk anymore, didnt have anything to say or the energy to communicate
Involuntary muscle spasms
Dead inside, walking zombie
Wishing for death every day for about four years
I couldnt feel love, even from the people in my life who really loved me

I went through a long series of trying different things that didn't work, many people telling me I would have to "manage" this for the rest of my life and that complete recovery was hopeless. I wanted to be dead. I felt hopeless.

I didn't give up and over several years I found some things that helped me. I restructured my life to avoid major triggers, changed my career, my living environment, my diet, my exercise routine, went through several therapists until i found one who i felt really helped me, started going to group therapy, finally was able to successfully complete EMDR, and am now doing network chiropractic care.

I have fully reversed my PTSD. It is completely gone. I had myself clinically tested by my therapist so that I would even have the clinical results and I tested at a "0" in every category- depression, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, all of it.

I want to spread my message because there were so many people who told me I could never really be happy again and it made me suicidal. I want people to know that's not true, there is hope. I am actually happy, I never wonder if life is really worth living anymore. My back problems are gone, my autoimmune problems are gone, and I can't even remember the last time I had an anxiety attack.

I am writing a book about all the things I learned during my journey to recovery because I want to help people who are still suffering, the years I experienced PTSD were a true hell and feel like it is my life purpose to help people find real, permanent solutions for this suffering.

I got to a place in my PTSD where I felt stuck, it felt like no matter what I did I just wasn't making any progress. Talking therapy wasn't helping anymore. Nothing seemed to be. After a lot of research and trying different things I found out that trauma becomes physically stored in the body and that is why I wasn't making progress. I found two therapies that unstore trauma- EMDR and network chiropractic care. I started with EMDR once I was in a place where all of my survival needs were taken care of and I was able to have the safe space to be able to process all the emotions that came out from the EMDR. The network chiropractic care is like icing on the cake. I am the happiest, healthiest person I know.

I really hope my story can help someone, and show people that there really is hope. You really can heal. My heart is so full thinking of everyone here who is suffering and remembering how i felt. I feel so much love for everyone here, and I hope that you find happiness. <3 <3 <3
 
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I am writing a book about all the things I learned during my journey to recovery because I want to help people who are still suffering, the years I experienced PTSD were a true hell and feel like it is my life purpose to help people find real, permanent solutions for this suffering.

Awesome!

Just don't think that your "solution" can fix everyone with PTSD! If that was the case, we'd be fixed!
 
I had myself clinically tested by my therapist so that I would even have the clinical results and I tested at a "0" in every category- depression, anxiety, intrusive thoughts, all of it.
I'd suggest there's something wrong with the "test" to be honest if you're scoring 0 on every measure - or you weren't completely honest. A perfectly healthy, well person will score something against at least one measure because anxiety, low mood etc are part of the human condition in everyone will feel a degree of something negative. The "disorder" part in PTSD comes when those feelings don't ever dissipate, when they interfere with normal functioning not that they exist at all.

I call bullshit.
 
I call bullshit.
Yep, agreed.

I've done some training and experience with some tests related to PTSD, and basically if you score below x, then the outcome is actually a liar is taking the test. A person with no diagnosable mental health issues, scores a low range, but above a minimum number (the liar test). Above x number, then there may be some concerns that need to be dealt with.

Mental health tests, to my knowledge, are explicitly designed to not achieve any such score as a 0, other than to determine lying / denial, and then the therapist wants to start digging.
 
Mental health tests, to my knowledge, are explicitly designed to not achieve any such score as a 0, other than to determine lying / denial, and then the therapist wants to start digging.
This, diagnostic tests are purposely set up to be hard to "cheat", too low a score suggests denial or dishonesty because mentally unwell people generally assume that healthy means an absence of symptoms or low mood or whatever. Even taking something quite specialist like dissociation, no one would score a 0 because we all to some extent dissociate in our daily lives. Mental illness generally takes a normally occurring feeling or process and amplifies it to beyond where most folk can cope or function so scoring 0 isn't a good thing.

It's also worth noting that while they're hard to cheat, they're notoriously easy to administer badly so your therapist may be in error here.
 
If you truly are symptom free, why would you need clinical results? This part makes no sense to me. I mean if things are good, why go to your therapist and request a test to prove that things are good? When things are good, it's human nature to enjoy the good time and not go seeking out external confirmation that things are good.

But that aside, can you explain what is network chiropractic care? I'm interested in learning more about this healing modality.

Who told you that you could never be happy again? The way you word things makes it seem like it's black and white, that you either have symptomatic PTSD and are unhappy, or you are symptom free and are happy. It's very much possible to have PTSD symptoms and be happy. Maybe this is part of the problem, and would explain why you scored zeros on that clinical test, to prove to yourself that the happiness is real, because anything but happiness would mean that you still have PTSD.
 
Awesome!

Just don't think that your "solution" can fix everyone with PTSD! If that was the case, we'd be fixed!

I dont believe that it will "fix" everyone with PTSD, i have and would never say that. I just believe that my experience was valid and i feel like a miracle has occurred in my life, and that it is worth sharing with other people because maybe it can help some of them too and if i can help someone live a better life im going to try

I'd suggest there's something wrong with the "test" to be honest if you're scoring 0 on every measure ...

I call bullshit.

You can believe whatever you want. I'm just here trying to share something that I feel are miraculous results, so that maybe other people can have similar experiences. Im not sure what youre judging off of since I didn't list what test was used on me. I started out with the TSI and then the organization i went to for 2 and half years changed the testing system to a test that they created. My therapist and I were in tears because she had never seen these results before and because I never thought i could accomplish them

Yep, agreed...
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interesting since you also dont know what test you are talking about, im not sure how you studied it specifically

This, diagnostic tests are purposely set up to be hard to "cheat", too low a score suggests denial or dishonesty ....

again, since you dont know what test youre talking about i dont understand how you are coming to these conclusions. Believe what you want, but my entire community and family has witnessed a miraculous change in me and all I am trying to do is share it with people who are having similar experiences so that maybe it can help them

If you truly are symptom free, why would you need clinical results?...

I took the clinical test because i am in the process of making my story public, and there are a lot of people who wont believe me. I requested to take the test in my last therapy session so that my story would be backed my a licensed professional who witnessed my changes over a period of 2 and a half years. She obliged because she also was astounded. I believe that everything I went through was for a reason and I dont intend to live the rest of my life without at least trying to help other people going through similar experiences.

No one told me I would never be happy again, I felt that way. I wished for death every day for about four years because my life was a living hell and I felt like no matter what I did I could not figure out how to make progress. I didnt understand what the point of living was anymore. and maybe it came off sounding like black and white because it was a short forum post but dont get me wrong, after the four years when I started to make progress it was another year and a half of changing my life and doing different therapies and i gradually became happier and more functional over that year and a half period. it certainly wasnt overnight.

Network chiropractic care is a form of therapy where a chiropractor touches certain places on your spine which helps to release trauma that is stored in your spinal cord, allowing your brain to fully reconnect to areas of your body that were previously blocked by trauma-changed tissues in your spine. I personally love Tony Robbins youtube video about it and would suggest chekcing it out. also if you decide to go through with it make sure that you only go to a level three certified network chiropractic care practicioner. you can find one on google like i did

If I scored '0' on everything, that would mean I was at the coroner....

again, you dont know the test parameters of the test i took and you can believe whatever you want.

That being said, I know that its possible some of you are being defensive because its hard to get your hopes up for something like this that could be fake and I understand. if i had read my post 5 years ago i would have been very skeptical as well. however, I just opened up to you about the most difficult experience in my life with the pure intention of trying to give others hope and let them know what i did to get where i am. please be respectful. lol THAT being said you are a bunch of strangers on the internet and i certainly opened myself up to this, no harm done. It doesnt seem like this forum is a great fit for me, Im trying to tell my experience to people who are open to it, not have them rip me a new one after i share one of the most painful experiences of my life
 
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While I appreciate what you have to share, it baffles me that you wouldn't bother to read our policies about no self promotion.
Yes, I am jaded by anyone coming to a peer support group and trying to convince us to read your book. And excuse me for assuming, but I doubt it's free.
You could have just as easily come here and shared your story like the rest of us do.
You wanted us to read your book. But you didn't bother to read our policies or rules.
So , speaking only for myself, you are out of line from the beginning.
Why would I want to read something you wrote when I'm pretty sure you haven't read anything we wrote. Our own painful experiences. And shared your 'cure' in the same manner we do with each other.
But to buy a cure?? Nah, I'm not skepitical, I simply don't believe it.
 
my bad on that, i didnt know all the rules i usually just click accept. its a lot of reading. i was excited to share my experiences. lol the book isnt even written and yes all of the videos are free

all of you all can believe what you want
 
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