ifeellikecroctears
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A bit of backstory, my brother, two years younger than me, was diagnosed with autism when he was five and I was seven. I was diagnosed with Social Anxiety Disorder about a year and a half ago, and I am now 15. We've moved five times before I was nine years old because of my dad's work. Not small moves either, across the country and even to another country and back. I rarely ever talk about it because I'm horribly anxious of people thinking I'm just trying to pass the blame onto innocent people, but I really believe that my social anxiety disorder started to develop when I was around seven or eight. That was when my brother was diagnosed and my mom was left to stress virtually alone as my dad was always working. I was always with them in public, and how anxious and stressed she acted around my brother wore off on me and I started to act the same way towards him. The next year was when we made the huge move to another country and stayed there for only a year. I had always thought that those series of extremely stressful events all happening at the same time were the causes of my anxiety disorder, but that changed about an hour ago. I still feel the same way about my anxiety, but after seeing CPTSD mentioned in an Instagram post and looking it up, reading the symptoms gave me a panic attack. It seemed to describe my situation perfectly and I was terrified. I know I shouldn't be self-diagnosing, so I want to see a therapist again to get a professional diagnosis. The problem with that is, on Christmas Eve I told my mom I wanted a therapist after a panic attack at the family party, then again on February 1st I told her I NEEDED a therapist during a panic attack about my grades, and its now April 17th and we have hardly talked about it. Mom has a lot of stuff going on right now and Dad's out of the question so I feel bad asking her to find me a therapist again but I also know I really need it, CPTSD or not my anxiety's only been getting worse recently. So, loads of context and backstory aside, does anyone have any advice for approaching my mom about therapy?