Hi everyone. :hello: My husband has PTSD. I rarely post in this section of the forum...but i am in need of advice and I would like a better understanding about everyday life & married life from the members who have PTSD and are married or in relationships. Considering i read everything in the "spouse" section...Alot of venting goes on about how hard things are for us supporters and how horrible days can be when dealing with PTSD. Today, I feel the need to get a better understanding if possible of course of how it is for our other half. From my own experience, I feel my husband is distant, very detached, on edge, I see a lot of anger and he struggles with trust. We don’t talk much so that’s about all I can say…. I wish we were closer and we would talk more…. I as the supporter feel distant as well now… I feel depressed, anxious, I feel much rejected which makes me angry (romance and intimacy is non-exsistant) and last but not least it leads to feeling very alone. Sometimes I feel like he doesn’t love me anymore because of his emotional numbing, his attempts to isolate himself, and his lack of interest in things we had done together. I believe him now…I am almost at the conclusion that I am incapable of being loved. I love my husband, and I feel horrible that I cannot do a thing to take this PTSD monster and destroy it! For good!! I wonder how my better half (I call him) feels about me?! About what we go through…about what he puts me through and how he makes me feel when he doesn’t talk to me, or when he feels distant… I wonder if he really understands the damage in the things he tells me when they are hurtful or I wonder how he feels when he is not honest just so that I don’t get my feelings hurt?! I wonder….. What is he keeping inside that he won’t tell me? and why does he talk to everybody else Is it that bad to be around me?? Does he still love me? Is he in love with me or does he just care a lot about me?? Not sure if he even needs me (doubt he does) does he still want to be married to me? Or am I just too much stress now and he is just living day by day and whatever happens happens? Does that mean we have no chance at a future together?? I am so lost… I wish I had my husband to talk to…It would help me out so much... I live with these questions in my head everyday All in all….this is a pointless thread. I have been told…and I already know that people with PTSD don’t/cant really start to worry about anything else until they are better. Until they conquer the battle of PTSD and have it under control. I guess I am screwed. :crazy: I wonder how spouses with PTSD feel about us (the supporters) staying.