I've been feeling more and more anxious the last few months. I realized that I'm becoming Agoraphobic.
If I have to go into a store I get extremely tense, hot, sweaty and feel panic coming on. I also realize that I am extremely burned out from trying to cope with years of my husband's hatred of his job (he's retiired and happy now) and my own life stress which I've had no one to help me with. Now I'm at the point where I don't even know how to talk about my own problems and I only want to be alone. I don't want any one around me at all. I have to resist the urge to tell people to shut up and go away. I'm very depressed (not suicidal though) and anxious.
Yesterday I had to leave a meeting early. I had a migraine, but also the strange feeling like nothing was real or I wasn't real or something. All of these people were talking and all I heard was a murmur and could feel the need to escape rising. I got to my car and cried all the way home (80 miles) then got home and cried some more. I went to bed exhausted and had sleep paralysis and night terrors with repeated episodes of feeling someone sexually entering me.
I have no real life memories of sexual assault though, but these dreams do come around some times. I know I don't take care of myself. I don't get plenty of exercise, don't eat the best foods, don't get enough run and relaxation, etc. I take Cymbalta and Wellbutrin. I take a minute dose of Adderall (10-20mg on a busy work day, but usually on 10mg). About 1 coffee is all, rarely any alcohol and only water to drink. I take an Ambien to sleep. I know I NEED to learn to make time for myself to relax, meditate, take hikes...what ever I enjoy. Does anyone have any tips on how to re-wire your life to make that a priority? Also, any supplements to help with the chronic overload of stress and burnout?
I'm just fried! Thank you.
(oh, more background....I'm 53 and in the beginning of menopause and also have chronic pain from a bout of menigitis scoliosis and a fractured sacrum).
If I have to go into a store I get extremely tense, hot, sweaty and feel panic coming on. I also realize that I am extremely burned out from trying to cope with years of my husband's hatred of his job (he's retiired and happy now) and my own life stress which I've had no one to help me with. Now I'm at the point where I don't even know how to talk about my own problems and I only want to be alone. I don't want any one around me at all. I have to resist the urge to tell people to shut up and go away. I'm very depressed (not suicidal though) and anxious.
Yesterday I had to leave a meeting early. I had a migraine, but also the strange feeling like nothing was real or I wasn't real or something. All of these people were talking and all I heard was a murmur and could feel the need to escape rising. I got to my car and cried all the way home (80 miles) then got home and cried some more. I went to bed exhausted and had sleep paralysis and night terrors with repeated episodes of feeling someone sexually entering me.
I have no real life memories of sexual assault though, but these dreams do come around some times. I know I don't take care of myself. I don't get plenty of exercise, don't eat the best foods, don't get enough run and relaxation, etc. I take Cymbalta and Wellbutrin. I take a minute dose of Adderall (10-20mg on a busy work day, but usually on 10mg). About 1 coffee is all, rarely any alcohol and only water to drink. I take an Ambien to sleep. I know I NEED to learn to make time for myself to relax, meditate, take hikes...what ever I enjoy. Does anyone have any tips on how to re-wire your life to make that a priority? Also, any supplements to help with the chronic overload of stress and burnout?
I'm just fried! Thank you.
(oh, more background....I'm 53 and in the beginning of menopause and also have chronic pain from a bout of menigitis scoliosis and a fractured sacrum).
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