hi, i am not sure what to say. i am 49 yrs old and was being treated for this depression for a year. I thought i was losing my mind because of the flashbacks (didn't know what was going on) and the things i could "hear" it still makes me feel crazy. anyway i kept becoming s**c*d*l, and finally went to a psychiatrist. i knew things (mostly noises) were making me jump through the ceiling, but didn't connect it to the depression. i am told i have complex ptsd from some childhood abuse when i was 3,4, and 5. i don't understand how it can bother me after this long. i am on 3 anti-depressants, but it still comes every few days , over and over. i just really need a way to make all this go away. i have had to change t twice, but the one i am seeing now is a trauma specialist. i have a lot of trouble being able to "talk". i just can't. i would love to hear from someone that this is going to go away sooner or later, and that you can have a normal life again. i am cookie, a teacher(if i don't lose my job) i have 3 grown children, no grandbabies yet. that's about all i can think of. bear with me!