pineapple98
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Last year, I lost my virginity to someone I had previously dated. We had talked about having sex before, and he was coming from another state to see me. I was very nervous when I heard he was coming but i was scared about what he would say if I said i didn't want to sleep with him. Fast forward to the night of. I came into the room and said I wanted to take a nap (because I was so nervous). I laid down on the bed and after a little while of not being able to sleep, he started poking me. He looked at me and said "it's time for us to have sex now." I don't remember if I said OK or not.
He started undressing me.
I was shaking.
He mentioned that I was shaking and I expected him to ask if I was OK or if I wanted to have sex. He didn't.
It hurt really bad, but I didn't say no or try to stop him from putting it in. I was in tears from how bad it hurt. He didn't ask me if I wanted to stop or if I was OK.
Later that night he asked me if I wanted to have sex again and I said yes. It hurt even worse than the first time and eventually I told him to stop. I had to tell him to stop three times (yelled it the last time) before he did.
I'm not sure if I was sexually assaulted or if it's just regret.
I feel that I was coerced into having sex because every time I mentioned that I may not want to, he would make me feel guilty about how far he drove and the money he spent on the hotel room.
He started undressing me.
I was shaking.
He mentioned that I was shaking and I expected him to ask if I was OK or if I wanted to have sex. He didn't.
It hurt really bad, but I didn't say no or try to stop him from putting it in. I was in tears from how bad it hurt. He didn't ask me if I wanted to stop or if I was OK.
Later that night he asked me if I wanted to have sex again and I said yes. It hurt even worse than the first time and eventually I told him to stop. I had to tell him to stop three times (yelled it the last time) before he did.
I'm not sure if I was sexually assaulted or if it's just regret.
I feel that I was coerced into having sex because every time I mentioned that I may not want to, he would make me feel guilty about how far he drove and the money he spent on the hotel room.