The day before yesterday I had one of my biggest episodes in a long time. I had a trigger and was basically reenacting my past.
The night after that I woke up with horrible back pain. As in was almost crying from that. Now, there's nothing wrong with my back. I've had it before when I had an episode, and grounding exercises almost fixed it.
I'm getting anxious even typing this.
I do have some vague memory of my back hurting somewhere where I spent Thursdays the first 9 months of what landed me on this forum.
But that doesn't tell me very much. Even if it is that and not something I've forgotten this was to generic for me to figure out what I'm "remembering".
And I'm scared. I'm still trying to stableize after it. I'm not sure I even want to know what it is. I know that Thursday meant the time I took to look after me but I was also afraid of what my off time meant.
I don't really know what I want with this post. Guess I'm just looking for some support.
The night after that I woke up with horrible back pain. As in was almost crying from that. Now, there's nothing wrong with my back. I've had it before when I had an episode, and grounding exercises almost fixed it.
I'm getting anxious even typing this.
I do have some vague memory of my back hurting somewhere where I spent Thursdays the first 9 months of what landed me on this forum.
But that doesn't tell me very much. Even if it is that and not something I've forgotten this was to generic for me to figure out what I'm "remembering".
And I'm scared. I'm still trying to stableize after it. I'm not sure I even want to know what it is. I know that Thursday meant the time I took to look after me but I was also afraid of what my off time meant.
I don't really know what I want with this post. Guess I'm just looking for some support.