Greetings
Had to activate my safety net 2 weeks ago.
Had a bad weather day, I was so stressed out, I felt every puddle and wind gust, I knew I was going to loose control of the van and have a wreck.
I drove 4 to 5 exits then pulled off to relax, but I made it, there and back.
When I got home I collapsed, then the dark thoughts started, how can I do this all winter, fixating on crashing the van, burnt out as the overdose of adrenaline subsides.
I can't live like this, that is when I made the call to my safety contact.
We talked, and he is a coworker on a different work schedule, and has first hand experience on this type of mindset. With his first wife.
Am I in a better right now? Marginally....
I've got to find out how to deal with the highway system, before I cause an accident.
G
Had to activate my safety net 2 weeks ago.
Had a bad weather day, I was so stressed out, I felt every puddle and wind gust, I knew I was going to loose control of the van and have a wreck.
I drove 4 to 5 exits then pulled off to relax, but I made it, there and back.
When I got home I collapsed, then the dark thoughts started, how can I do this all winter, fixating on crashing the van, burnt out as the overdose of adrenaline subsides.
I can't live like this, that is when I made the call to my safety contact.
We talked, and he is a coworker on a different work schedule, and has first hand experience on this type of mindset. With his first wife.
Am I in a better right now? Marginally....
I've got to find out how to deal with the highway system, before I cause an accident.
G