Hi im not great at introductions never really know what to write on these things, im here because i wanted to unburden myself from some past traumas i've suffered, i'm depressed every day, i don't have any social life or friends, i've pushed away any potential for romantic relationships and am always on my own, i'm scared to make new friends outside as i fear i may be judged negatively when people get close and shun me(talking from experience), but i want to live normal, i've grew up in a very dysfunctional household where i suffered alot of emotional trauma, also suffered in school, and workplaces, and now i cant even get a job out of fear of being emotionally abused, its quite late and i should be going to bed