Ok, I haven't posted for a while and haven't been supportive like I'd like to be...I think that part of the reason is because I am busy with three children under the age of 3 and also partly because I have been dealing with my symptoms negitavely. I want so badly to be the success story, to give all the readers looking for hope a glimmer, but even after the most significant trauma is now 14 years ago, I still find myself struggling with PTSD. I have also started self medicating with pain meds and I am ashamed of this and also scared by it. I thought that after I have my first two girls', I would never again do anything to harm myself, but I know that I was wrong. I don't get out at all and my husband is not supportive of me at all, so I guess that's why I've taken to trying to deal with my symptoms by getting numb.