Where to start, I was involved in late March in three violent episodes. The first two were at work one was a road rage incident that spilled onto the property that I politely tried to stop and the two aggressors turned on me and it became a physical confrontation. The two days later while working alone on the property I accidently stumbled upon a man that I never have seen before, he pulled a handgun and pointed it at me, he did not speak a word to me I just fled back to the office totally freaked out for the next few days.
Then while I was sober my now ex fiancé decided to get drunk/high on whiskey and benzos, she said she was going to shoot me, tried to push me down a set of stairs then hit me in the head with a large decorative wood wall hanging, and I just exploded breaking things, broke a door, her bottles of booze, her cell phone, etc. and I was arrested. This behavior is very, very uncharacteristic for me.
Since that night there was 3 weeks of insomnia and other symptoms. I went to a joke of a shrink who saw me for 20 minutes($145) he said it could be GAD or PTSD and prescribed Gabapentin 1200mg a day it knocked me out the first few days but now I am having vicious vivid nightmares of the man with the gun, assault and the night with my ex. Flashbacks had a real bad one yesterday. After I ran back to office and locked myself in it basically immobilized me. I am also having a horrible time with dark thoughts, hyper vigilant, Anxiety really ramped up this morning was blown out of bed at 2:30am by a nightmare and could not go back to sleep.
Made appointment for therapy but is three weeks away, I don't know if I can make it, I try to hold everything in check but just fall apart
Thanks for listening
Then while I was sober my now ex fiancé decided to get drunk/high on whiskey and benzos, she said she was going to shoot me, tried to push me down a set of stairs then hit me in the head with a large decorative wood wall hanging, and I just exploded breaking things, broke a door, her bottles of booze, her cell phone, etc. and I was arrested. This behavior is very, very uncharacteristic for me.
Since that night there was 3 weeks of insomnia and other symptoms. I went to a joke of a shrink who saw me for 20 minutes($145) he said it could be GAD or PTSD and prescribed Gabapentin 1200mg a day it knocked me out the first few days but now I am having vicious vivid nightmares of the man with the gun, assault and the night with my ex. Flashbacks had a real bad one yesterday. After I ran back to office and locked myself in it basically immobilized me. I am also having a horrible time with dark thoughts, hyper vigilant, Anxiety really ramped up this morning was blown out of bed at 2:30am by a nightmare and could not go back to sleep.
Made appointment for therapy but is three weeks away, I don't know if I can make it, I try to hold everything in check but just fall apart
Thanks for listening