This is my first post on this forum. I had 8 surgeries before I was 18 months old. The first was a day or two after I was born. At birth I had multiple organ defects. The story I've been repeatedly told is that I died on the operating table at 2 days old and had two more NDEs that year. No medical professional believed I would see 3 years old and due to the o2 loss to my brain during the NDEs they predicted that if I did live I would be developmentally delayed. Well, clearly they were wrong, I'm 49. Due to being highly (unique) physically I went through repeated visits to the radiology department where I was catheterized, my bladder filled with fluid and then had to pee in front of an audience. I also was given barium enemas and had to poop for an audience as well. It hurt; it was humiliating and I felt much less than human each time. I know now that I dissociated during these experiences and I sometimes didn't come out of it for days. I ended suffered with depression, ADHD, anxiety, learning disabilities through out my childhood and into adulthood. I went to therapy as an adult and have tried multiple modalities. All seemed to help in one way or another and I am doing pretty well now. I've adjusted to the idea that I am not normal physically or psychologically. I'm better than normal. Because nothing came easy to me I've worked twice as hard as anyone around me. I've developed skills, insight and willingness to do whatever I have to do to accomplish my goals. I would have died without the medical interventions I received as a baby and I don't look negatively on Drs or the medical community. It feels good to write to people who get it and I could go on but this post is long enough already. Thanks for reading.