Hi Y'all, I'm new here, and as I type this I realize that this will be the 1st time I said: I have PTSD That may sound strange considering I got the diagnosis about 10 yrs ago. I was in a therapy group for 8 yrs that dealt with childhood abuse, and all of that time I thought my only problem was with depression. Even tho' at the begining my therapist diag. me with PTSD and depression, I only "owned" the depression end of it. I just believed I was weird, crazy, paranoid, and more jumpy (my startle re-flex is HIGHLY developed) than "normal" people. I worked hard on childhood issues and worked thru alot of them, but I still felt ... un-normal, not right, afraid that I was just fooling all those folks, that truly I was crazy, or insane. Thank God I found this forum, because after reading alot of y'alls posts, I am begining to believe maybe I'm not crazy. I have PTSD. I also see that because I didn't accept that, now I have even more work to do. The truth is I have become comfortable with the way I live. I don't like not going many places and having no friends, but I push most people away. It's easier to just stay home and not worry about going out and feelin like people are lookin at me, or if there are too many people in the store, or if the store is too dark, or if there is ... etc. etc. etc. I hope I can learn to be OK in my own skin. Thanks for listening.