What are some things that help you keep yourself alive when you want to kill yourself and feel like there's no hope for you? Its silly that I can be encouraging to others but inside feel like its the end for me. I just feel like I have been trying to heal and overcome these things for so many years with so little progress and I wonder what is even the purpose of my debilitated, worthless life? It feels like everyone would be so much better off without me. It feels like I'd be better off not having to deal with the pain and with the shame of how crippled my life is by this disorder. I just wondered if anyone had some thoughts about hope, about healing, about possibilities. My brain has run pretty dry on these things, and thought maybe someone else might have something to say that might help me realize I can choose to keep trying.