I have been out of work for 11months mow due to multiple injuries and surgeries while on duty as a LEO. I put in 8yrs and 9months in the department and never really thought to much of the anxiety out of work and the messed up nightmares. I thought that due to being in my career field that being hypervigalent was just something that came with the job.
After all the experiences I have encountered and situations I wish I could erase from my memory since the department released me due to limitations and restrictions I've noticed how much more intense the anxiety depression mood swings and nightmares are. I have gotten to the point where I just want to be totally isolated and don't enjoy going out anymore, going to parks with the kids and to church.
I feel like all my relationships are crumbling and my wife and kids deserve to be happy and have someone who can make them happy and enjoy going and doing things with them. I try so hard to put the act on to be someone or somwthing im not around other people or when I'm in public bit I get even more anxious and it's draining. It's hard to talk to people about it and I felt that a group like this might be beneficial or encouraging.
After all the experiences I have encountered and situations I wish I could erase from my memory since the department released me due to limitations and restrictions I've noticed how much more intense the anxiety depression mood swings and nightmares are. I have gotten to the point where I just want to be totally isolated and don't enjoy going out anymore, going to parks with the kids and to church.
I feel like all my relationships are crumbling and my wife and kids deserve to be happy and have someone who can make them happy and enjoy going and doing things with them. I try so hard to put the act on to be someone or somwthing im not around other people or when I'm in public bit I get even more anxious and it's draining. It's hard to talk to people about it and I felt that a group like this might be beneficial or encouraging.