DissociativeJunkie
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I recently did a psychological eval and got the results:
Bipolar Type II with psychotic features, PTSD with dissociative features, Schizoid Personality Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder.
Before this I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type and Histrionic Personality Disorder (which never made sense to me but they insisted just because I'm eccentric and creative with my wardrobe. I absolutely HATE being the center of attention. I'm socially phobic...getting attention terrifies me). In the past I was diagnosed with Major Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, though obvious the Major Depression was actually part of being Bipolar, and my Hypomania wasn't as severe as full Mania so they didn't realize I was in a semi manic state (though to me I'm like a different person).
I'm on meds for the Bipolar diagnosis. It's a bit rocky still, but I manage the psychotic features pretty well. At this point they are almost non-existent. Its the PTSD and personality disorders that really affect my life on a severe level. I've been told Borderline patients are some of the hardest to treat. That's a little discouraging, but I'm going to try my best. Personality Disorders are learned behavior. My parents are Schizoid. Plus I think I developed it from trauma. I think that goes with the Borderline disorder too. There just aren't any meds for that.
I'm on enough meds anyway. Who else has to take meds? I've been on some serious ones, and they made me drool, lack emotion, gain weight, horrible side effects and made me barely functional for almost 4 years. At one point I was taking 11 pills a day. Now I'm down to 5. I hate taking them. They're a pain in the ass to remember. I want to go back to the days I didn't need them so I didn't have to schedule them into my life. Ok...I needed them, didn't know it, and barely survived without them. BUT I still hate taking them. I'm not a huge fan of medicine. We live in a pill popping culture.
Bipolar Type II with psychotic features, PTSD with dissociative features, Schizoid Personality Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder.
Before this I was diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar Type and Histrionic Personality Disorder (which never made sense to me but they insisted just because I'm eccentric and creative with my wardrobe. I absolutely HATE being the center of attention. I'm socially phobic...getting attention terrifies me). In the past I was diagnosed with Major Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, though obvious the Major Depression was actually part of being Bipolar, and my Hypomania wasn't as severe as full Mania so they didn't realize I was in a semi manic state (though to me I'm like a different person).
I'm on meds for the Bipolar diagnosis. It's a bit rocky still, but I manage the psychotic features pretty well. At this point they are almost non-existent. Its the PTSD and personality disorders that really affect my life on a severe level. I've been told Borderline patients are some of the hardest to treat. That's a little discouraging, but I'm going to try my best. Personality Disorders are learned behavior. My parents are Schizoid. Plus I think I developed it from trauma. I think that goes with the Borderline disorder too. There just aren't any meds for that.
I'm on enough meds anyway. Who else has to take meds? I've been on some serious ones, and they made me drool, lack emotion, gain weight, horrible side effects and made me barely functional for almost 4 years. At one point I was taking 11 pills a day. Now I'm down to 5. I hate taking them. They're a pain in the ass to remember. I want to go back to the days I didn't need them so I didn't have to schedule them into my life. Ok...I needed them, didn't know it, and barely survived without them. BUT I still hate taking them. I'm not a huge fan of medicine. We live in a pill popping culture.