iwannadeletethis
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Unfortunately, this is not about amazing R.E.M. songs. About 3 years ago, I married a man who, I found out a year and a half into the marriage was using me to escape his homosexuality. We were religious, and he tried not to believe in it. I loved him deeper than any human being I had ever known. We were best friends and we had more fun than I'd ever had in my life. We had the deepest conversations and there was never any judgement. He was my great love. I wouldn't have gotten so attached and eventually hurt if our religion had aloud us to have sex before marriage. We would have figured it out. And maybe he wouldn't have chosen such a lifestyle of deception. So from these thoughts, I started challenging life. And it spiraled into me eventually not believing in God. I was a Christian for 20 years. I had a music ministry at 12 years old. And through all of the abuse I endured as a child, abuse in my first marriage, the struggle of homelessness, and everything in between, I NEVER felt alone. Because I believed in God. Then after all of that I told my friends, who were Christian, that I didn't believe in God. Not in a rude way, just said it. Then all of my friends turned their back on me. Some in a very mean way. I'm orphaned, so I don't have family. I'm jobless.
I'm looking for life advice from other people who don't believe in God. I don't want to hear from people who do believe about how He's still with me. I'm past that. I want to hear real, raw words of wisdom from people like me. I'm new to this. It's only been about a year.
I'm looking for life advice from other people who don't believe in God. I don't want to hear from people who do believe about how He's still with me. I'm past that. I want to hear real, raw words of wisdom from people like me. I'm new to this. It's only been about a year.