Well....on top of the fact that my legs still feel like jello...i can hardly walk.
Had an epidural, 2 nerve blocks and a joint block...in my sacrailiac spine.
Definately a poor me day.
my new boyfriend just called..he was here today and he was just very caring and concerned...asking if i needed anything more than once. Than he called back and asked" are you sure you are ok...you sound so sad....i just tild him I was and that I was just having an awful day.
The problem is my thinking......i don't feel good enough to have someone so nice in my life and i feel like he deserves better....i don't know how to shake this negative thinking.
i just needed some support today...from people that understand, he tries...like really hard but why do i feel this way still?
i just am feeling so messed up in the head right now and so frustrated.
i am 35, not working with this stupid PTSD and degenerative disc, like WTF? It just doesn't seem fair today.
The doctor figures it has gone deeper into my joints as well and that is why I still have chronic pain....like more wonderful news. i think i am scared....I am so scared to be in a wheelchair.
Had an epidural, 2 nerve blocks and a joint block...in my sacrailiac spine.
Definately a poor me day.
my new boyfriend just called..he was here today and he was just very caring and concerned...asking if i needed anything more than once. Than he called back and asked" are you sure you are ok...you sound so sad....i just tild him I was and that I was just having an awful day.
The problem is my thinking......i don't feel good enough to have someone so nice in my life and i feel like he deserves better....i don't know how to shake this negative thinking.
i just needed some support today...from people that understand, he tries...like really hard but why do i feel this way still?
i just am feeling so messed up in the head right now and so frustrated.
i am 35, not working with this stupid PTSD and degenerative disc, like WTF? It just doesn't seem fair today.
The doctor figures it has gone deeper into my joints as well and that is why I still have chronic pain....like more wonderful news. i think i am scared....I am so scared to be in a wheelchair.