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Trying to sort out what happened. I was away for the weekend and we had a family trip to the beach. I was walking along the beach and at some point I lost myself. I was done swimming and basically all dried off. I know plenty of time went by and I "came back" to me swimming in the ocean. And I was really swimming and very active. I know I have checked out from time to time but hadn't been aware of it being a chunk of time nor did I think I was ever active. Is this weird? I know it surrounded an emotional conversation but the more I reflect the more it bothers me that I have no recollections of this time.
Since then I have been on a hyper alert. I called my t this week to see if she had a cancellation to fit me in which she does not. I see her next week. This two week gap is really hard for me. I probably won't consider this important next week but now I am really concerned.
I didn't mean to check out. It keeps coming up in sessions with my T asking how often I have These kind of episodes. I didn't think it happened much outside of T but now I recognize it is more often than I was aware. I must frustrate my T when it happens. It doesn't seem like a big deal but I think I need to tell my T about this but don't want to keep having more issues.
Not sure why this is coming up now or if it was just because of the difficult conversation.
Am I overthinking this whole thing?
Does dissociation get worse or is it an awareness thing?
Since then I have been on a hyper alert. I called my t this week to see if she had a cancellation to fit me in which she does not. I see her next week. This two week gap is really hard for me. I probably won't consider this important next week but now I am really concerned.
I didn't mean to check out. It keeps coming up in sessions with my T asking how often I have These kind of episodes. I didn't think it happened much outside of T but now I recognize it is more often than I was aware. I must frustrate my T when it happens. It doesn't seem like a big deal but I think I need to tell my T about this but don't want to keep having more issues.
Not sure why this is coming up now or if it was just because of the difficult conversation.
Am I overthinking this whole thing?
Does dissociation get worse or is it an awareness thing?