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Do more instances of trauma always make PTSD more complicated or is there a point that it's all just the same old, eventually?
I was abused as a toddler between ages of 2-6. I have been raped 4 times since I was 16 each in very different circumstances. I was also kidnapped briefly, at knife point and made to perform oral sex. I know it's a lot of trauma but it feels like after the first few memories came back the blows have gotten a lot less hard.
I wasn't consciously aware of anything happening at the time as I have a dissociative disorder.
It makes me feel like I can't relate to people who consciously experienced their assaults at the time because I haven't faced that terror, or been consciously aware of it at least.
I wonder if other people who have experienced multiple sexual assaults / blackouts feel the same way?
I feel like I am in a good place. But I wonder why I'm not struggling more. Or if I'm just early on in the healing process and am still naive.
It sounds silly to be worried about being happy. I'm not worried about that, it's great. I'm just a bit frightened that it's all going to come crashing down around me and I'm not going to be able to cope with it.
I have been in recovery for just under a year and am moving onto the building good habits stage of treatment if that helps.
Any advise or people experiencing similar would be so much appreciated!!
I was abused as a toddler between ages of 2-6. I have been raped 4 times since I was 16 each in very different circumstances. I was also kidnapped briefly, at knife point and made to perform oral sex. I know it's a lot of trauma but it feels like after the first few memories came back the blows have gotten a lot less hard.
I wasn't consciously aware of anything happening at the time as I have a dissociative disorder.
It makes me feel like I can't relate to people who consciously experienced their assaults at the time because I haven't faced that terror, or been consciously aware of it at least.
I wonder if other people who have experienced multiple sexual assaults / blackouts feel the same way?
I feel like I am in a good place. But I wonder why I'm not struggling more. Or if I'm just early on in the healing process and am still naive.
It sounds silly to be worried about being happy. I'm not worried about that, it's great. I'm just a bit frightened that it's all going to come crashing down around me and I'm not going to be able to cope with it.
I have been in recovery for just under a year and am moving onto the building good habits stage of treatment if that helps.
Any advise or people experiencing similar would be so much appreciated!!