Hi,
I am new here, don't want to make this too long. I am here for the same reasons as everyone else and I suffer with symptoms a lot at night, which is about now. I am thirty three, a mother of one great kido and I try to keep it together every day. I do a lot of silent suffering, meaning there is nobody that could possibly understand what I am experiencing, so I don't really talk about it. I know you all know what I am going through and that brings me a lot of comfort knowing I am not alone.
Warning: I am disclosing partial summery of trauma below, I will be careful to not be too graphic.
ptsd for me stemmed from life and death situations in early childhood, I suffered from psychological/emotional, physical, sexual, and verbal abuse. This started from birth until my late teenage years, but the first nine years of my life were some of the most terrifying psychologically. I was starved, neglected and often would be stripped of my clothes, beat, put in cold showers or my head would be forced into bathtubs filled with water or dunked in a sink (hot or cold water). Sometimes face down, sometimes face up. Many times it was taken too far and I nearly drowned to death. I survived this and many parent attempts of murder suicide by carbon monoxide, driving our family up on high cliffs and attempting to drive off....this is just a small bit of my life as a child just to give some examples of where my ptsd came from. I have done A LOT of healing, but ptsd never seems to go away...
Thanks for reading.
I am new here, don't want to make this too long. I am here for the same reasons as everyone else and I suffer with symptoms a lot at night, which is about now. I am thirty three, a mother of one great kido and I try to keep it together every day. I do a lot of silent suffering, meaning there is nobody that could possibly understand what I am experiencing, so I don't really talk about it. I know you all know what I am going through and that brings me a lot of comfort knowing I am not alone.
Warning: I am disclosing partial summery of trauma below, I will be careful to not be too graphic.
ptsd for me stemmed from life and death situations in early childhood, I suffered from psychological/emotional, physical, sexual, and verbal abuse. This started from birth until my late teenage years, but the first nine years of my life were some of the most terrifying psychologically. I was starved, neglected and often would be stripped of my clothes, beat, put in cold showers or my head would be forced into bathtubs filled with water or dunked in a sink (hot or cold water). Sometimes face down, sometimes face up. Many times it was taken too far and I nearly drowned to death. I survived this and many parent attempts of murder suicide by carbon monoxide, driving our family up on high cliffs and attempting to drive off....this is just a small bit of my life as a child just to give some examples of where my ptsd came from. I have done A LOT of healing, but ptsd never seems to go away...
Thanks for reading.
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