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My memory is so bad that I can't remember the thread I really wanted to write tonight.
It's so bad that I feel like I can only remember 15% of what happens in therapy, if I even absorb it in the moment at all.
It's so bad it affects my work sometimes. It poses a hazard occasionally (leaving stoves on sorta thing). It's makes my social isolation 1000X worse, because when I think to reach out or respond to someone, I forget almost immediately to do so.
I have so many problems that need solving, but my memory issues seem to team up with my wicked disordered sleeping patterns such that I seem to get nothing done at all.
It seems my memory has deteriorated lately (past month or so) to the point where my co-workers are realizing I need to be reminded of everything I said I was going to do or wanted to say to our boss, etc. And that's saying something. My memory always sucks, but this is getting a little ridiculous.
I thought about posting this in the dissociation section, because I feel like that's the root of it, coupled with the severe avoidance and isolation I've been practicing. I just don't know. Derealization seems to be running my life lately.
I wish I had some precise question to pose or goal for posting this, but I don't. I just feel like this issue is slowly destroying what I have left of a life. For God's sake, I forgot to tell my dog he could eat after I filled his bowl, then walked back in and wondered for a moment why he was just sitting there, looking at me. :banghead:
It's so bad that I feel like I can only remember 15% of what happens in therapy, if I even absorb it in the moment at all.
It's so bad it affects my work sometimes. It poses a hazard occasionally (leaving stoves on sorta thing). It's makes my social isolation 1000X worse, because when I think to reach out or respond to someone, I forget almost immediately to do so.
I have so many problems that need solving, but my memory issues seem to team up with my wicked disordered sleeping patterns such that I seem to get nothing done at all.
It seems my memory has deteriorated lately (past month or so) to the point where my co-workers are realizing I need to be reminded of everything I said I was going to do or wanted to say to our boss, etc. And that's saying something. My memory always sucks, but this is getting a little ridiculous.
I thought about posting this in the dissociation section, because I feel like that's the root of it, coupled with the severe avoidance and isolation I've been practicing. I just don't know. Derealization seems to be running my life lately.
I wish I had some precise question to pose or goal for posting this, but I don't. I just feel like this issue is slowly destroying what I have left of a life. For God's sake, I forgot to tell my dog he could eat after I filled his bowl, then walked back in and wondered for a moment why he was just sitting there, looking at me. :banghead: