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lostforgottensoul
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Im trying to let myself feel...anything. i need to do laundry and havent yet, in my PJs, not had a shower in 2 days. Just sitting, sort of spaced out, and noticed that its hard to breathe and im trembling outside and inside. Anxiety. Bad anxiety. I can pinpoint that. I know theres very intense emotions under the numbness. They were there when i heard she was dying and numbed them protecting myself from my family...i get that....but family arent bothering me. My dad & step mom leaving me alone, and im struggling to feel anything. Cant say its the seriqueol xr (deadens emotion a bit) because i was on the same dose when i first heard.
It started to come out a bit last night. Maybe im just numbing it in the day because of my dad & step mom. Or because thats just what i do to be functional. Compartmentalizing and numb most of the "boxes" to function. I dont know.
It started to come out a bit last night. Maybe im just numbing it in the day because of my dad & step mom. Or because thats just what i do to be functional. Compartmentalizing and numb most of the "boxes" to function. I dont know.