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The rain finally stopped from Hurricane Harvey. The entire Greater Houston area is mostly destroyed. My house is fine, my family is alive. But I am not okay. I go from hyper cleaning to frozen to panic, random crying. I was rather calm during the intense rain, 16 tornado warnings, and non-stop emergency flood warnings. I went through flashbacks related to being trapped and distortions of people wanting me dead. Guessing non-ptsd people don't do that. My one friend tirelessly helped others while I froze in my house that was surrounded by a "river over major highways" moat. I am lost as to the income hit that we will take from this. The mortgage company doesn't want to help us, all they will do is wave late fees for three months. We are both mostly commission type jobs. People are out donating money while we really can't. I want to help and I freeze or fear seeing the massive amount of people that are traumatized. Then I feel guilty. Is this normal? Is this ptsd? Do I just suck as a person? Do I not know how to be generous? How do I fix this?