I have had a plan for a long time, I have a couple dates. What I don't have is confirmation my kids will be OK. I fail them as a parent living, can't imagine it'll be worse if i'm gone. My therapist will just tell me I would do "irreparable harm" but won't tell me what that means. My kids are my world, they are growing up and are shutting me out as kids do, but I can't take it. I was going to wait until they were both 18, but feel so bad just want to go.