shrinkingviolet
Confident
Hello there. I stumbled upon this website and was greatly moved to join. I have never been diagnosed with PTSD but have been suffering the results of violence in my younger years. I was sexually abused as a child by a family member and was then raped while in college. I have been in and out of therapy to deal with the aftermath, experienced both good and bad therapists and have had people in my life who have been unsupportive and supportive. As much as I think this no longer bothers me, I am learning that many of my now behaviors or coping (or lack of) is as a result of what I experienced. I have had certain things that trigger me to where I put up huge walls and shut down. I have trust issues, I have control issues and it is hard for me to share with my husband, as supportive and loving as he is, he has his own issues that he has never addressed. He was also abused as a child and is former military and law enforcement. I guess I want somewhere to share where I feel safe and want to help others too. I just know that I have not survived all I have for nothing....there is a bigger plan that God has for me.