Hi,
I wanted to introduce myself. I won't get into the details now but I really need honest opinions. I have seen the same therapist for 3 years, most of the time 2x a week. I have a trauma background and am working very hard to get better. I suffer from anxiety, panic, depression, derealization, and ED. I started to get better but have sort of struggled in a big way the past 2 months.
Up until a few weeks ago my therapist and I had an understanding. If things got too bad between sessions, I could email and he would reply with a simple "I'm sorry things aren't going well. Lets talk about it at out next session" or something similar. That was enough to make me feel not alone (as I have no support network I feel comfortable with). Sometimes I would go weeks with no need for support between sessions, sometimes I had to reach out several times. But as soon as I got a reply I was ok. He told me he understood my need for this knowing my story and he did not mind.
A couple of weeks ago he stopped responding. This immediately sent me into a huge panic as I had been struggling anyway. The next session he told me that I could reach out but he would not respond as he had very limited availability. I was really crushed. It is VERY hard for me to trust anyone and to reach out for help is something I just don't do. I couldn't believe he would do this without having a discussion about this first and helping me find alternative means of support if he was no longer available. Especially since I have been having thoughts of just not wanting to live anymore.
I got very angry with him at our last session (NOT something I have ever done before but I was just hurt beyond words). He is on vacation this week and I am not going back. Am I wrong to feel so upset at the way this was handled? I can't thank you enough for honest opinions. I feel abandoned.
I wanted to introduce myself. I won't get into the details now but I really need honest opinions. I have seen the same therapist for 3 years, most of the time 2x a week. I have a trauma background and am working very hard to get better. I suffer from anxiety, panic, depression, derealization, and ED. I started to get better but have sort of struggled in a big way the past 2 months.
Up until a few weeks ago my therapist and I had an understanding. If things got too bad between sessions, I could email and he would reply with a simple "I'm sorry things aren't going well. Lets talk about it at out next session" or something similar. That was enough to make me feel not alone (as I have no support network I feel comfortable with). Sometimes I would go weeks with no need for support between sessions, sometimes I had to reach out several times. But as soon as I got a reply I was ok. He told me he understood my need for this knowing my story and he did not mind.
A couple of weeks ago he stopped responding. This immediately sent me into a huge panic as I had been struggling anyway. The next session he told me that I could reach out but he would not respond as he had very limited availability. I was really crushed. It is VERY hard for me to trust anyone and to reach out for help is something I just don't do. I couldn't believe he would do this without having a discussion about this first and helping me find alternative means of support if he was no longer available. Especially since I have been having thoughts of just not wanting to live anymore.
I got very angry with him at our last session (NOT something I have ever done before but I was just hurt beyond words). He is on vacation this week and I am not going back. Am I wrong to feel so upset at the way this was handled? I can't thank you enough for honest opinions. I feel abandoned.