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I am kinda struggling right now. Recently I think I've gone back to actual flashbacks from when I was little. I don't know what I did wrong to make it come back, I'm on winter break so I thought I would be free from this stuff...
In therapy, my therapist and I have been working on sorting out how my childhood went as a starter to working through it, partly in hope to lessen the nightmares I have since I wake up in panic but usually can't remember the nightmare. She's mentioned at some point that it could be a younger part of me that has the nightmare and I'm not dealing with stress during the day so that could be why?
I don't know what to do to cope. Last time was when I went to the kitchen for food and I couldn't find any I could eat, when I found something I could cook, my anxiety was too high and I had to go back to my room in my blankets and anything I did made it worse. I think the anxiety came from the neglect when I was little. I don't know what I messed up, my nightmares were worse both before and after that so I've done something else to cause those... sorry I'm repeating myself a lot I'm really confused and mindfulness and grounding I've done won't fix it so I have to be messing something up, I've tried the breathing stuff and 54321 and touch-related things, drawing/writing makes anger come out
i feel stuck & misplaced....
In therapy, my therapist and I have been working on sorting out how my childhood went as a starter to working through it, partly in hope to lessen the nightmares I have since I wake up in panic but usually can't remember the nightmare. She's mentioned at some point that it could be a younger part of me that has the nightmare and I'm not dealing with stress during the day so that could be why?
I don't know what to do to cope. Last time was when I went to the kitchen for food and I couldn't find any I could eat, when I found something I could cook, my anxiety was too high and I had to go back to my room in my blankets and anything I did made it worse. I think the anxiety came from the neglect when I was little. I don't know what I messed up, my nightmares were worse both before and after that so I've done something else to cause those... sorry I'm repeating myself a lot I'm really confused and mindfulness and grounding I've done won't fix it so I have to be messing something up, I've tried the breathing stuff and 54321 and touch-related things, drawing/writing makes anger come out
i feel stuck & misplaced....