Tornadic Thoughts
MyPTSD Pro
I wanted to start a thread that feels like a safe space for folks who may feel quite spiritual but aren't bound to a specific religion, if any at all, for whatever reasons. I often struggle with delivering what's on my heart and I hope I don't make this post sound disrespectful to anyone who may feel differently in any way, as that is certainly not my intent.
I have to admit that religion in any form is quite triggering to me on many levels, as I experienced many disheartening moments behind the perceived pristine walls of organized religion and at the hands of those who strongly believe(d) and preach(ed) it. I'm not saying all folks who believe those things are the same, by any means, just openly sharing what prompted me to want to create this space.
I no longer follow doctrines or hang with those who strongly feel I should. "Shouldness" no longer has a reserved seat at my table, as all it does is create even more self-doubt and self-loathing for continually reminding me of yet another external expectation I couldn't meet, just like I felt when I was a child, and later when I attempted to go on my own in a desperate search for kind genuine and loving acceptance in those pre-scripted scenes.
I now religiously follow my heart and listen to my intuition as I've always been naturally led to do, although most adults and authoritative figures in my life squashed the shit out of that notion early on and labeled it as many negative/hellish things instead, and often still like to when I share my thoughts in certain arenas. Whenever I don't listen to my gut, I find myself looking back and saying, "I knew it. Why the hell didn't I listen to myself?"
I painfully, and finally, learn(ed) that unconditional self-love and purposely and healthily nurturing this meat coated skeleton that I currently reside in, as it was meant to be (the real temple, as I view it) are my most sustainable and effective methods of self-care.
By actively partaking in those proven methods each day, it ends up benefiting and energizing me greatly, which in turns help me contribute more healthily to the whole, and my love cup stays more consistently full. Win/win. Nature, love, music, movement, and breath are the things that fuel and sustain my life force and allow me to pay it forward. Would love to hear from others. Thanks for reading.
I have to admit that religion in any form is quite triggering to me on many levels, as I experienced many disheartening moments behind the perceived pristine walls of organized religion and at the hands of those who strongly believe(d) and preach(ed) it. I'm not saying all folks who believe those things are the same, by any means, just openly sharing what prompted me to want to create this space.
I no longer follow doctrines or hang with those who strongly feel I should. "Shouldness" no longer has a reserved seat at my table, as all it does is create even more self-doubt and self-loathing for continually reminding me of yet another external expectation I couldn't meet, just like I felt when I was a child, and later when I attempted to go on my own in a desperate search for kind genuine and loving acceptance in those pre-scripted scenes.
I now religiously follow my heart and listen to my intuition as I've always been naturally led to do, although most adults and authoritative figures in my life squashed the shit out of that notion early on and labeled it as many negative/hellish things instead, and often still like to when I share my thoughts in certain arenas. Whenever I don't listen to my gut, I find myself looking back and saying, "I knew it. Why the hell didn't I listen to myself?"
I painfully, and finally, learn(ed) that unconditional self-love and purposely and healthily nurturing this meat coated skeleton that I currently reside in, as it was meant to be (the real temple, as I view it) are my most sustainable and effective methods of self-care.
By actively partaking in those proven methods each day, it ends up benefiting and energizing me greatly, which in turns help me contribute more healthily to the whole, and my love cup stays more consistently full. Win/win. Nature, love, music, movement, and breath are the things that fuel and sustain my life force and allow me to pay it forward. Would love to hear from others. Thanks for reading.