I have trouble with people I see every day.
I am especially troubled by how I recently acted with a supervisor.
I got so clingy and emailed him almost 75 times since Sept.
Ofcourse, at first he was liking it. Like a rush, I guess, and he really lavished it on me.
Then, after I told him I had problems, that was it.
He basically told me to quit. I do not blame him.
I am so embarassed and mortified. I mean, yes, he fed right into it, too, but I am so shamed.
I was so happy that someone was saying I was a good person, doing a good job, etc. It was like mania and then it was also so like Borderline.
Does anyone else get clingy like a child? I look like one, in a way, too. I do not look my age and he was very curious, asking questions, not appropriate and it was all a mess.
Now I am so ashamed to see him. I am staying till Christmas and then swtiching buildings to where I will only see him on occasion. I have to suck this one up and live with the embarassment because I cannot just quit. Though I want to sooooo much.
So I am wondering if anyone else gets really so sickeningly clingy like an adolescent? I truly feel this PTSD has made me reverse age, like a developmental disorder,like I am a little child. GRRRR! I do not even know HOW to act like an "adult" anymore.
I am especially troubled by how I recently acted with a supervisor.
I got so clingy and emailed him almost 75 times since Sept.
Ofcourse, at first he was liking it. Like a rush, I guess, and he really lavished it on me.
Then, after I told him I had problems, that was it.
He basically told me to quit. I do not blame him.
I am so embarassed and mortified. I mean, yes, he fed right into it, too, but I am so shamed.
I was so happy that someone was saying I was a good person, doing a good job, etc. It was like mania and then it was also so like Borderline.
Does anyone else get clingy like a child? I look like one, in a way, too. I do not look my age and he was very curious, asking questions, not appropriate and it was all a mess.
Now I am so ashamed to see him. I am staying till Christmas and then swtiching buildings to where I will only see him on occasion. I have to suck this one up and live with the embarassment because I cannot just quit. Though I want to sooooo much.
So I am wondering if anyone else gets really so sickeningly clingy like an adolescent? I truly feel this PTSD has made me reverse age, like a developmental disorder,like I am a little child. GRRRR! I do not even know HOW to act like an "adult" anymore.