Hey people i just survived Christmas and the New year and i mean just, i havent had so many panic attacks and blank spots for months the inner voices i hear were uncontrolable . I lost the best part of two days over that short period and I am just starting to come good, 3/01/07 Psychiatrist appointment told him of my funny turns over the past few days ( I trust this man with my life ) and he suggested that i be admitted to a private psyh hospital for a rest. Every thing else he has advised me to do in the past i feel has worked for the better so i agreed. It wont be till the start of the new month due to lack of beds but Im kinda looking forward to the rest. Not sure what it entails but Im sure i can find the funny side of it and post a funny tale. I promptly left the Doc office to go shopping with my 14yr old daughter ( does one know how many shops are out there for teenage girls )forgetting about my problems for a while just following her around doing and going where Im told i had another panic attack lost my balance and ended up flat on my face. Thanks to my daughters quick thinking and sence of humor she picked me up dusted me down and drag me to another dress shop to sit and rest for a while.Three hours later shopped out and rested we make way for home after dropping her off the wheels fell off my wagon i went to the nearest pub and wiped my self out. Sore, worn out, drunk i finally made it home very pissed with myself about the drinking ( Shit it tasted so good at the time ). Now i wake to another day very,very sore so i think i will just take today as it comes. Thanks for listening Nugget