If you can call me surviving - heh. I've been to several therapists and a couple psychiatrists. I've asked about BPD repeatedly because so many of my symptoms seem to fit into that diagnosis to me. One told me I have severe anxiety and abandonment issues. One looked at me for 2 seconds and said "You don't have BPD" and diagnosed me with Mood Disorder (NOS). One said I show symptoms of PTSD. SO I went to get psychologically evaluated. I took the MMPI-2 and another test I can't remember the acronym for. Last week I got my official diagnoses: PTSD, Borderline and Dependent Personality traits. Oh and my anxiety showed up as "through the roof".
I start DBT next week. I found this forum today and I'm hoping between having some community support via the forums and my therapy sessions that I can start to feel like I'm actually surviving. Because right now, I feel like I'm mostly just trying to shut out the underlying stuff that made me this way and still having roller coaster emotions despite being on Celexa and Wellbutrin. They seem to help keep the rages down, but the depressive slumps and irritability and everything else is still there.
But yeah - Hi, by the way. I'm Emi.
I start DBT next week. I found this forum today and I'm hoping between having some community support via the forums and my therapy sessions that I can start to feel like I'm actually surviving. Because right now, I feel like I'm mostly just trying to shut out the underlying stuff that made me this way and still having roller coaster emotions despite being on Celexa and Wellbutrin. They seem to help keep the rages down, but the depressive slumps and irritability and everything else is still there.
But yeah - Hi, by the way. I'm Emi.