Wastinglight
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He's just cancelled on me for the third night in a row. At lunchtime today he invited me to come over after work. Then, just minutes before I was due to leave work to go see him, he cancels. Apparently some spontaneous stomach bug has had him chucking his guts up all of a sudden. What a coincidence. I'm willing to bet it's stress, not a stomach bug.
Aaaaaaand cue panic attack. I've been a shaking, hysterical crying mess for the last half hour.
This probably sounds like an overreaction on my part. But this is exactly how it started when he withdrew from me at the start of our relationship. When he didn't invite me around to his place for 10 weeks, and I had thought it was over. I'm not upset cos I don't get to see him tonight (well, okay, yeah I am a bit upset about that). I'm upset because I'm very afraid he's about to go into shutdown big time.
I know I'm jumping the gun on this but I am totally effing freaking out. I don't think I can do this again. And just before I leave to go see my family for Christmas. Don't know if I can do this.
Aaaaaaand cue panic attack. I've been a shaking, hysterical crying mess for the last half hour.
This probably sounds like an overreaction on my part. But this is exactly how it started when he withdrew from me at the start of our relationship. When he didn't invite me around to his place for 10 weeks, and I had thought it was over. I'm not upset cos I don't get to see him tonight (well, okay, yeah I am a bit upset about that). I'm upset because I'm very afraid he's about to go into shutdown big time.
I know I'm jumping the gun on this but I am totally effing freaking out. I don't think I can do this again. And just before I leave to go see my family for Christmas. Don't know if I can do this.
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