Hi, my name is CJ and I was diagnosed with PTSD a few days ago. This is my second time hearing the diagnosis but the first time it was said to me with out any doubt. The same doctor threw out all of my old psychiatric diagnoses saying PTSD accounts for all my symptoms and that's the end to the debate.
This diagnosis hit me hard. I have known for a while of the clearly unique to PTSD symptoms I have but I have seen how it's portrayed in the media and I don't feel I can qualify if there are people suffering so much worse than I am.
And my suffering has been starting to alleviate some. I've been making slow progress. I also have fibromyalgia and the pain every day is horrific. apperently Fibro caused by PTSD isn't uncommon.
About me as a person. Everyone I know thinks I turned out to be a wonderful person. I do my best to help the communities I am in when I can and as much as I can. I am polite and look people in the eye a lot more than I am comfortable with, and I fake a smile and laugh when needed to make people I am around feel comfortable.
I had big dreams to be a psychiatrist or an artist one day and my world came crashing down on me as I went further into college. With 27 credits short of a psychology degree I had to take off for health and eventually drop out all together.
Most people empathize with my situation and try to do what they can. My mother though, (who I live with) has lost any sense of compassion or empathy she once had. She is so critical of me even though I try so hard. She rarely acknowledges if she is wrong in singular situations and I don't think she will ever see our broken relationship as a shared problem with guilty parties on both sides.
I pride myself on being fair, logical and like my ability to see many sides of a situation. There is no talking to her, no reasoning, no compromise. She's a big part in my struggle with my depression and suicidal ideation. I decided a while ago I will never kill myself so no need to worry.
I hope I did well and didn't break any rules. Nice to meet you all, CJ aka Buddey.
This diagnosis hit me hard. I have known for a while of the clearly unique to PTSD symptoms I have but I have seen how it's portrayed in the media and I don't feel I can qualify if there are people suffering so much worse than I am.
And my suffering has been starting to alleviate some. I've been making slow progress. I also have fibromyalgia and the pain every day is horrific. apperently Fibro caused by PTSD isn't uncommon.
About me as a person. Everyone I know thinks I turned out to be a wonderful person. I do my best to help the communities I am in when I can and as much as I can. I am polite and look people in the eye a lot more than I am comfortable with, and I fake a smile and laugh when needed to make people I am around feel comfortable.
I had big dreams to be a psychiatrist or an artist one day and my world came crashing down on me as I went further into college. With 27 credits short of a psychology degree I had to take off for health and eventually drop out all together.
Most people empathize with my situation and try to do what they can. My mother though, (who I live with) has lost any sense of compassion or empathy she once had. She is so critical of me even though I try so hard. She rarely acknowledges if she is wrong in singular situations and I don't think she will ever see our broken relationship as a shared problem with guilty parties on both sides.
I pride myself on being fair, logical and like my ability to see many sides of a situation. There is no talking to her, no reasoning, no compromise. She's a big part in my struggle with my depression and suicidal ideation. I decided a while ago I will never kill myself so no need to worry.
I hope I did well and didn't break any rules. Nice to meet you all, CJ aka Buddey.