NoWhereKnowWhere
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So I've been doing ok in fact I would say quite well. Things are still hard but I'm learning to cope and deal with it so much better.
Something shitty happened. I've moved home to get away from the crazy scary neighbours. And I've been feeling so much safer and more relaxed in the new place. It's quiet and a nicer area.
A few days ago two men unlocked my door and walked into my home. (It turns out the landlord sent them to the wrong place, the other place was empty and they were supposed to be doing repairs. It was an honest mistake) I heard the door and assumed it was my partner and went through only in knickers and a t-shirt ffs. I got the fright of my life.
I was like WTF ARE YOU DOING they got a fright too the place was supposed to be empty. Then I was like get out. They didn't, they said they were here to fix some shit or another and I was like get the f*ck out. Then I went through to the bed room and closed the door got my phone threatened to call the police. One guy shouts through "do you want us to fix (don't remember what he said)" I said "get out of my house" then he was like "so you want us to leave it?" I shouted through "GET OUT" then they f*cked off.
This has really put the shits up me. My partner phoned the landlord and went tits at them they said nothing like that would ever happen again it was human error. Accidents happen but why did I have to say go away so many times before they got the picture.
Shit like this just reminds me of how unsafe I am as a female. I'm so scared all the time. I wanted to go out jogging tonight that always makes me feel better but I'm so f*cking scared. I hate it. Am I overreacting if this was to happen to a normal person they'd be over it by now it might've been a hilarious situation for them? I don't know.
Do I just need to wise up and get my shit together ? Now I'm having trouble sleeping, picked a fight with my parter (I didn't realise that's what I was doing at the time), I want to do something drastic like shave my hair off. It's like two steps forward 15 steps back. I'm not doing good tbh. I feel desperately sad.
It's such a little thing just a mistake. I feel like I should ba able to deal with it better. Or it's like the perfect excuse to f*ck up all my good work. How should I be coping with this? I
Something shitty happened. I've moved home to get away from the crazy scary neighbours. And I've been feeling so much safer and more relaxed in the new place. It's quiet and a nicer area.
A few days ago two men unlocked my door and walked into my home. (It turns out the landlord sent them to the wrong place, the other place was empty and they were supposed to be doing repairs. It was an honest mistake) I heard the door and assumed it was my partner and went through only in knickers and a t-shirt ffs. I got the fright of my life.
I was like WTF ARE YOU DOING they got a fright too the place was supposed to be empty. Then I was like get out. They didn't, they said they were here to fix some shit or another and I was like get the f*ck out. Then I went through to the bed room and closed the door got my phone threatened to call the police. One guy shouts through "do you want us to fix (don't remember what he said)" I said "get out of my house" then he was like "so you want us to leave it?" I shouted through "GET OUT" then they f*cked off.
This has really put the shits up me. My partner phoned the landlord and went tits at them they said nothing like that would ever happen again it was human error. Accidents happen but why did I have to say go away so many times before they got the picture.
Shit like this just reminds me of how unsafe I am as a female. I'm so scared all the time. I wanted to go out jogging tonight that always makes me feel better but I'm so f*cking scared. I hate it. Am I overreacting if this was to happen to a normal person they'd be over it by now it might've been a hilarious situation for them? I don't know.
Do I just need to wise up and get my shit together ? Now I'm having trouble sleeping, picked a fight with my parter (I didn't realise that's what I was doing at the time), I want to do something drastic like shave my hair off. It's like two steps forward 15 steps back. I'm not doing good tbh. I feel desperately sad.
It's such a little thing just a mistake. I feel like I should ba able to deal with it better. Or it's like the perfect excuse to f*ck up all my good work. How should I be coping with this? I