I wouldn't say we sufferer... I love my vet very much. He makes me happy much more than he makes me sad. I have the option to walk out of this PTSD mess if I want to. It's just very very hard to be f*cking Pollyanna all the time. I am definitely not Pollyanna by any stretch of the imagination. It's hard to be patient all the time. It's hard to be understanding all the time. I fully admit to being an asshole at times.