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I thought this was something a bit hard to wrap my mind around. Maybe my therapist can teach me a thing or two... She says to stop her as I know too much about it and she does not want to waste time when she speaks.
But this.... this was new and it actually made sense once I gathered it. Let me lay it out so not to confuse as I was; hell, I may still confuse
What causes trauma? One thing is thinking death is imminent. You think you are about to die. Truly die.
Now we know anniversaries can cause flashbacks, panic, nightmares, all the goodies and again you think you are dying. No doubt you think you are.
Now your body is reliving all that because of that initial past but when it happens one or two anniversaries before you learn it is an actual anniversary and know you have PTSD what has happened? The "breakdown" and the intense panic attacks that you think you are dying from and not a doctor one thinks you are... That in itself is trauma. So now you have an additional trauma. You never knew you had ptsd, your ptsd flaring up years later can be another trauma all in itself if you never knew you had it and bottomed out.
You are in your mind faced again with death and not knowing at the time there is reason for it.
But being prepared and knowing it should not be so hard as now you know beforehand what your body is expecting and most important why. Still working on that but it never dawned on me my break downs before I knew I had this could be in them self trauma.
I found this quite intriguing. And in a million years would not have thought that. I am starting to like a therapist with PTSD.
Any input? i would like to hear others' ideas on this.
But this.... this was new and it actually made sense once I gathered it. Let me lay it out so not to confuse as I was; hell, I may still confuse
What causes trauma? One thing is thinking death is imminent. You think you are about to die. Truly die.
Now we know anniversaries can cause flashbacks, panic, nightmares, all the goodies and again you think you are dying. No doubt you think you are.
Now your body is reliving all that because of that initial past but when it happens one or two anniversaries before you learn it is an actual anniversary and know you have PTSD what has happened? The "breakdown" and the intense panic attacks that you think you are dying from and not a doctor one thinks you are... That in itself is trauma. So now you have an additional trauma. You never knew you had ptsd, your ptsd flaring up years later can be another trauma all in itself if you never knew you had it and bottomed out.
You are in your mind faced again with death and not knowing at the time there is reason for it.
But being prepared and knowing it should not be so hard as now you know beforehand what your body is expecting and most important why. Still working on that but it never dawned on me my break downs before I knew I had this could be in them self trauma.
I found this quite intriguing. And in a million years would not have thought that. I am starting to like a therapist with PTSD.
Any input? i would like to hear others' ideas on this.