So I was sexually and physically abused as a child. I've been through the flash backs and anxiety attacks but the hardest part for me is the paranoia that leaves me anxious and feeling like I'm in danger all the time. I used drugs and alcohol to cope with all that but when my son came into my life I've stayed clean for almost a year. My major problem is I get these bouts where I get paranoid for no reason and I'll think someone has a hidden agenda and they are plotting something and I become very convinced of it even if its an innocent situation. I'll starting making accusations and I wont realize it right away and when I feel horrible and I dont understand what made me think like that. My counselor tells me it has to do with my fight or flight response. I dont want to destroy my relationship, we are very close and have a son together and he hasnt done anything wrong. unfortunately he gets the back lash of it. I'm afraid of taking any medications because I am a past addict. Has anyone experience this and if so how did you deal with it?