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Confident
I found out yesterday that the current counselor that I have right now won't be working there starting sometime in Feb. Even though she's an Addictions Counselor she's helped me a lot more than most people have.
Part of my PTSD comes from people coming and going in my life constantly. And my way of dealing with this has always been to hurt them by things I say in-order to feel less hurt by them leaving, regardless of whatever the reason is they are leaving.
I don't want to do this with her... but the thoughts are still there and just the "she's leaving" is a huge trigger for everything that has happened in my life.
I've only been meeting with her since Sept/Oct and never thought this would be so difficult as it has been the last 24 hours.
Part of my PTSD comes from people coming and going in my life constantly. And my way of dealing with this has always been to hurt them by things I say in-order to feel less hurt by them leaving, regardless of whatever the reason is they are leaving.
I don't want to do this with her... but the thoughts are still there and just the "she's leaving" is a huge trigger for everything that has happened in my life.
I've only been meeting with her since Sept/Oct and never thought this would be so difficult as it has been the last 24 hours.